Search permit!

By Kareena Holloway, Fellowship Bible Church, Rogers, Celebrate Recovery Women's Encourager Coach, 9/30/20



Most of us have been searched before ...be it going to a sports game, getting on a plane, or sometimes maybe due to some not so good choices we have made. Now, I have not always been the one who excitedly looks forward to being searched. I have often been the one feeling as if I'm guilty. In fact, in those times of being searched, I know that a lot of us have NOT been content with it. We are inconvenienced, filled with feelings of bitterness, anger, guilt, and/or shame. 

 

Back before I started recovery, I was this way about everything. I was not humble, or content about anyone knowing more about me than I wanted them to see or know! The day came that my world as I knew it came crashing down around me, and I saw with crystal clarity what I had been actively hiding from God. I knew he saw everything, but before recovery I had some crazy cycles of insanity which clouded reality and brought many consequences. Humbled by the extreme amount of mercy and grace I was receiving as truth came forth, I no longer wanted to hide. Suddenly, I wanted to be searched. I wanted God to shine light into every dark place in me and make me clean.   

Can you relate?   

I am actively journaling and praying to God to keep me humble, asking Him to show me the areas where I am stumbling. By the way, my attitude about being searched at venues and the like has much improved! I know they're just doing their job trying to keep us safe! In my recovery or in my purse, if I have to hide it, it's wrong.  :)  

 Reflect:

1:  What thing are/were you hiding from God?

 

2:  How does it feel knowing that God's truth has covered you with mercy and grace?

 

3:  What will you do or say to show others the mercy and grace you've received? 

 

Click HERE to listen to "Search Me Know Me" by Kathryn Scott

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