Thursday, July 19, 2012

I Once Was Blind...

One of our dear sisters had eye surgery to improve her sight. The following is a praise report from the surgery and a testimony of how God is growing her in her faith. My eye is doing alright. As the blurriness clears up, I am noticing distortion, mostly in the upper third of my field of vision. I spoke to the dr's nurse this morning. Unfortunately, the distortion does not go away. This is the damage that I knew was likely to happen. It really does not seem to be causing me problems. I guess the brain just compensates for it. I am thankful for a good healthy left eye. I can see out of my right eye; I'm just not able to read out of it. Who would have thought it... My getting involved with CR led me to the closest relationship I've ever had with God. Then this eye issue came up. I know how differently I feel about it today compared to what it would have been if I didn't have the trust and the faith in God/Jesus that I do. I asked for healing and no damage to be done. God didn't grant that request. Once upon a time, I would have felt abandoned by a God that doesn't answer my prayer or didn't find me worthy enough to be delivered from this. Today, I KNOW that isn't the case. I KNOW that I only see a narrow view of my life; God has the wide angle view. His plan may not be my plan, but praise God, I do trust that His plan is the perfect plan. All because of a program called CR. For more information about Celebrate Recovery contact Rodney at 479-659-3679 or roholmstrom@fellowshipnwa.org

Friday, July 13, 2012

Time To Make A Choice

Are you a procrastinator? Do you tend to sit on the fence, unable to make a decision on the way to go? What about with your life and who runs it? If you are like me, you may have trouble from day to day deciding who will be God in your life, ourself or Christ. I love Elijah's words to the people of Israel "And Elijah came near to all the people and said, 'How long will you hesitate between two opinions? If the Lord is God, follow Him; but if Baal, follow him.' But the people did not answer him a word." 1Kings 18:21. Talk about being indecisive, or uncommitted, huh. For so long of my life, I hung out in that neutral zone of life, not willing to commit to either way in my life. I tried to "behave" so as to not get too close to the junk, but I wasn't committing to Him in my life. Result: emptiness, lifeless, and unfulfilled. I need more than a good behavior, I need a relationship with Him. Today, I choose to get off of the fence and run to Him. And then tomorrow, I will have to do it all over again cause in my flesh, the tempting, easy way is to just to sit where I am and not ruffle the waters too much. Every day is a choice for me to follow Him and make Him God in my life or me try to play god in my life. Is Rodney god in my own life or is God ruler and THE Higher power in my life? With Him in my life, I have true life. I have to "be" before I can "do". If you would like more information about Celebrate Recovery contact Rodney at 479-659-3679 or roholmstrom@fellowshipnwa.org

Wednesday, July 4, 2012

One Day At A Time

Recovering the image that was broken... is One Day at a Time process as far back as Elijah. God said to him in 1 Kings 17:9: "Go to Zarephath...and stay there" Isn't it interesting that He didn't tell him anything beyond the step he was taking in that moment? He leads us in every moment but one step at a time. No matter how difficult your situation you are going thru, He is with you leading you thru it. Isaiah 49:16 remind us that each of us are tattooed on the palm of our Fathers hands. He knows what you are going thru and where you are in every point of your life and because he was faithful to lead you to it, He will be faithful to carry you thru it. "Do not fear, for I am with you; Do not anxiously look about you, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, surely I will help you, Surely I will uphold you with My righteous right hand." Is 41:10 Focus on the step you are taking now and God will give you the strength to take the next until the Day of His return. Enjoy today friend. Happy 4th of July!! For information about Celebrate Recovery contact Rodney at 479-659-3679 or roholmstrom@fellowshipnwa.org

Monday, July 2, 2012

The Snooze Button

I remember when my husband and I were first married. At night before going to bed, I would set my alarm clock for a solid half hour or more before I actually needed to get up the next morning. Each time the alarm would sound; I’d hit that snooze button and sneak in a few more minutes of “precious” sleep. As newlyweds, my husband was slow to inquire not having complete understanding of my ritual. Finally, one morning he asked why I set my alarm if I didn’t intend to actually get up at that time. He pointed out that I’d have better sleep if I simply slept until it was actually time to get out of bed. That was new information for me. I thought all along I was cheating time by hitting snooze and getting some extra sleep. It never dawned on me to set the alarm and when it sounded, get right up! I had hit the snooze button for years. In fact, I’ve hit the snooze button of life for years. I’ve put off projects, dreams, hopes, duties, responsibilities and privileges. I figured “it” could wait. There’d be time to deal with or experience “it” later. Here’s the rub, I wasn’t having the quality of life I could have had by neglecting or denying. I wasn’t completely fulfilling my purpose in life by hitting the snooze button and putting things off for another time. Sure there were alarms, signs or wake-up calls along the way. For example when I’d watch a movie about someone taking a risk and making their dreams come true, I’d tear up and sometimes have a good cry followed by a sigh of some day. Or more recently, when I watch reality shows where contestants compete in their dream field for a spot on their own show or a big fat check. I’d ask myself,” What’s it going to take for me to have the courage to go for it? What am I waiting for?” I pray, my final alarm has sounded. My last wake-up call has come and I am going to answer it! Yesterday, we lost a family friend in a tragic accident. He was on vacation with his family and will not be returning home with them. Their lives are forever changed. There is no more time to wait or put things off. Everything has changed NOW. Perhaps this devastating event is impacted by the fact that today; we celebrate my husband’s birthday. He turns the same age our friend would have on his birthday in four months. A birthday that will be remembered instead of celebrated. Through recovery, I’ve learned many lessons. The Eight Principles of Celebrate Recovery are keys to me. The Twelve Steps are footholds for my path. I don’t have time to hit the snooze button any longer! As I type this, I hear my son’s alarm going off for the third time this morning. It’s a tangible reminder. God’s promises, healing and grace will give me all I need to live my life fully awake, to have the courage to live the life He’s planned for me. I’ve lived for so many years only half awake while hitting the alarm of some day. TODAY is a day to start living! NO MORE SNOOZING for this girl. -A tribute to my husband Dave and to Alan P who lived life wide awake. Thank you. Daphne- Another Changed life For more information about Celebrate Recovery contact Rodney at 479-659-3679 or roholmstrom@fellowshipnwa.org